No new phone.

For whatever reason, probably my previous bankruptcy, I was declined the mobile.

Apparently I'll recieve a letter in the mail within 10-14 business days informing me as to why I was declined.

So helpful that is, NOT.

To make me even more depressed I got home to find that whilst I was wasting my time applying for a mobile I can't have, a courier tried to deliver my laptop 3 days early! So now, I don't have a new mobile to play with OR my new laptop.

Pissed off......

Really pissed off.

Seems this bankruptcy is going to hang over my head for the REST OF MY LIFE!!!!!

Plus, my doctor is no closer to finding out what is wrong with me. My blood tests are still WAY out of whack and she's not happy at all so I'm off to get a Chest CT now.

So in the past 8 months I'll have had :

4 MRI's

4 X rays

 and 2 CT scans

Not to count how many times I've been under the fluoroscope thing.
I'm surprised I'm not glowing in the dark.

I am starting to feel like a pin cushion though :(
Really not fun. Feeling quite sorry for myself at the moment and all I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep.

PS I know there are people out there who have it a billion times worse than I do...but you know what? I'm not living their lives, I'm living mine, so my problems are HUGE to me and I won't be made to feel otherwise.

So fuck you all very much, keep you criticisms to yourselves! xxxx